I do not have to remind you how wonderful my life is, it is annoying to most women. I am a very blessed but spoiled wife and mother. My husband was created just for me by the God who knew exactly what I would need. My children are everything I could hope for (but a little messy).
There is something missing, and you wont beleive what I think it is. More kids! I do not believe it is prudent to have any more bio babies. But I am so fascinated by the stay at home moms with mega families. I think about so often that it may be considered an obsession. David and I discuss it pretty frequently, but like most men he is worried about the financial end.
What I dream of doing is rescuing siblings from being split up. I want our house to be the first foster home for little ones, their first safe environment. I want our family to love children and their biological families until they can get on their feet. I know it doesn't make sense to most moms, to love and let go, but I see it as a great accomplishment if they are reunited with a family that can make it work.
I talked to Summer last night-our first foster daughter-and she simply amazes me! She has every right to hate and be bitter-but she's not. She is not a statistic for DCS, she is a proud mom and soldier in the US Army, about to leave for Basic Training. I will not go into all she has overcome in the last year but most young moms would have thrown in the towel, but she didn't.
She said last night what a great influence Iwas on her and I just cried! To think that I was given this child by God for a preciously short amount of time, and actually made a differnce.
I am truly passionate about this, I wonder when it will be my turn again?
Friday, August 22, 2008
Monday, August 18, 2008
Dearly Beloved
I got the part I wanted in the play I auditioned for. We are about three weeks in to rehearsal and I am learning faster than I thought. We are still working on blocking and still reading lines and making notes.
This is really a funny play! I laugh out loud sometimes when I am reading, even after I have read it already! This is you official invitation to the play. We will have performances on September 25,26,27th and October 3,4 and 5th. I am encouraging all of my 'fans' to come out on Saturday night the 4th, I think it will be m ore fun if all my friends see it together!
This is really a funny play! I laugh out loud sometimes when I am reading, even after I have read it already! This is you official invitation to the play. We will have performances on September 25,26,27th and October 3,4 and 5th. I am encouraging all of my 'fans' to come out on Saturday night the 4th, I think it will be m ore fun if all my friends see it together!
Friday, July 25, 2008
This is it!
As far as I know I will be auditioning for a part in Dearly Beloved at our local theater. The catch is my most recent performance was as a Freshmen in college-1992. I was a main character in the play Ruth- I was Orpha-the daughter in law that did not go with Naomi. Ok, so I only actually had 2 spoken lines, before becoming 'women at market' for the remainder of the play.
So I am now thinking what on earth I should sing if I am asked to. I am thinking Stupid Boy, but I am not sure. I can not imagine learning all the lines right now. My brain has not functioned at that level since.... well ever! I still dream about doing field shows and being the only one out there who doesn't know the guard routine.
This could be fun, or I could cry myself to sleep for months-I'll keep you posted.
So I am now thinking what on earth I should sing if I am asked to. I am thinking Stupid Boy, but I am not sure. I can not imagine learning all the lines right now. My brain has not functioned at that level since.... well ever! I still dream about doing field shows and being the only one out there who doesn't know the guard routine.
This could be fun, or I could cry myself to sleep for months-I'll keep you posted.
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
When you love someone
When someone you loves does something you don't approve of or feel is dangerous what do you do? In recent months I have found myself in this situation with no fewer than 6 close friends.
I have called out a few, tolerated some, prayed about all of them. I have never been so torn in my life. My love for my friends is so strong that I tend to overlook what they are doing because I know who they really are. But these particular issues are deal breakers.
I have been far to judgmental in the past- and find myself being to merciful at other times. I believe in mercy-I have certainly needed my fair share. But my spirit is so upset by these things that I find myself just avoiding the people and therefore avoiding a confrontation.
That was all well and good until the last week or so when apparently my mercy has ended. God is still merciful-but do not ask me for one more minute of grace. I have got to keep myself above water and that is not easy for me sometimes. I can not personally be responsible for everyones secrets. I am glad people feel good talking to me-but I am so glad I am not a counselor!
I need respite.
I have called out a few, tolerated some, prayed about all of them. I have never been so torn in my life. My love for my friends is so strong that I tend to overlook what they are doing because I know who they really are. But these particular issues are deal breakers.
I have been far to judgmental in the past- and find myself being to merciful at other times. I believe in mercy-I have certainly needed my fair share. But my spirit is so upset by these things that I find myself just avoiding the people and therefore avoiding a confrontation.
That was all well and good until the last week or so when apparently my mercy has ended. God is still merciful-but do not ask me for one more minute of grace. I have got to keep myself above water and that is not easy for me sometimes. I can not personally be responsible for everyones secrets. I am glad people feel good talking to me-but I am so glad I am not a counselor!
I need respite.
Saturday, July 19, 2008
the randomness that defines me.
Kids Camp was great. Lori and Daniel did an amazing job. I was only allowed on the stage one night which I thought was a travisty because I have quite a bit of experience upstaging people.
Adara continues to play church camp. She is after Tim Rose's job I think. We have suffered/sat through several camp events and awards cermonies. I also think all of our dolls, stuffed animals and imaginary friends have been to the altar-which is always good.
Jon and Kate plus 8-our new favorite show. My girls think we should call them and go for a visit. I am sure that wouldnt scare them at all!
My Daddy is preaching in my church tomorrow! This is honestly a life high point for me. I am so proud of my church family and even more proud of Dad and Mom. Its like Miley Cyrus getting to sing with the Jonas Brothers-just kidding. But It really will be a thrill to be in service with everyone together.
Our Josh is working at McD's in Trenton-feel free to stop by and tell him you know us-that should really make him proud! Right!
My hair is frizzy-I am not sure what that is about it is usually oily- I need to check that out with Brandy.
Our business has picked up quite a bit. Fannie Mae and Freddie Mac are both in alot of financial trouble-so that is creating a HUGE stir in the property preservation world.
I start my courses soon to be a Real Estate Professional Assistant in a couple of weeks. I will be selling for LA Realty in Milan with my boss Rick Burrow.
My children did not know what a cucumber was before yesterday and certainly were surprised to find that they were made into pickles.
More another time.....
Adara continues to play church camp. She is after Tim Rose's job I think. We have suffered/sat through several camp events and awards cermonies. I also think all of our dolls, stuffed animals and imaginary friends have been to the altar-which is always good.
Jon and Kate plus 8-our new favorite show. My girls think we should call them and go for a visit. I am sure that wouldnt scare them at all!
My Daddy is preaching in my church tomorrow! This is honestly a life high point for me. I am so proud of my church family and even more proud of Dad and Mom. Its like Miley Cyrus getting to sing with the Jonas Brothers-just kidding. But It really will be a thrill to be in service with everyone together.
Our Josh is working at McD's in Trenton-feel free to stop by and tell him you know us-that should really make him proud! Right!
My hair is frizzy-I am not sure what that is about it is usually oily- I need to check that out with Brandy.
Our business has picked up quite a bit. Fannie Mae and Freddie Mac are both in alot of financial trouble-so that is creating a HUGE stir in the property preservation world.
I start my courses soon to be a Real Estate Professional Assistant in a couple of weeks. I will be selling for LA Realty in Milan with my boss Rick Burrow.
My children did not know what a cucumber was before yesterday and certainly were surprised to find that they were made into pickles.
More another time.....
Friday, July 4, 2008
My church family
My church family is amazing. The diversity, the gifts, the unity-it is all very different from other churches. That is not to say we don't have issues-but that is family business and we handle it 'in house'.
Traveling all over with Dad, having so many friends in full time ministry all over the world-I have learned a few things. Just becasue it says it is Spirit filled-does not mean it is.
And then there is my church. Annointed services-like nothing I have ever experienced-seriously. Not the hype, not the work up-gentle moves and joyous moments that can only be God inspired.
My favorite part is to watch my brothers and sisters receive. There is nothing more beautiful than a tear streaked face, than wasted mascara, men bear hugging after praying together. It is a sight.
So tomorrow I get to spend alot of my day with these great people. I am so excited-this is going to be so much fun!!!
Traveling all over with Dad, having so many friends in full time ministry all over the world-I have learned a few things. Just becasue it says it is Spirit filled-does not mean it is.
And then there is my church. Annointed services-like nothing I have ever experienced-seriously. Not the hype, not the work up-gentle moves and joyous moments that can only be God inspired.
My favorite part is to watch my brothers and sisters receive. There is nothing more beautiful than a tear streaked face, than wasted mascara, men bear hugging after praying together. It is a sight.
So tomorrow I get to spend alot of my day with these great people. I am so excited-this is going to be so much fun!!!
Thursday, July 3, 2008
a recurring dream
First I must explain my obsession with church camp. This is my favorite thing in life-some people love Christmas- I love camp.
So here is the dream.
It is usually the 3rd night of camp and it is time to get ready for church. I suddenly realize that I have worn everything I brought already. What, no cute outfit for church? I can not describe the horror. Camp has always been so important to me that I pack everything I own.
The summer before I left for college-my last time as a camper. I took everything with me that I was taking to decorate my dorm room and so did Kristan-my best friend.
I planned for months every year what to take.
Now-it is even worse, because not only do I have to pack me to look presentable for the week, but my three beauties as well.
Lyndsey packs herself-but I am still ultimately responsible for the look. Adara is like me and will just pack it all and a every shoe she own just to be safe. Tori Beth will pack certain outfits together, in order of the day she will wear them.
I am telling you the next couple of day at our house will be filled with frenzy and excitement as we prepare for camp.
Pray for Holy Spirit to do in every camper what He did in me at camp. That feeling of an annointing so strong you can not wait to be back there again.
Off to Mecca I go.
So here is the dream.
It is usually the 3rd night of camp and it is time to get ready for church. I suddenly realize that I have worn everything I brought already. What, no cute outfit for church? I can not describe the horror. Camp has always been so important to me that I pack everything I own.
The summer before I left for college-my last time as a camper. I took everything with me that I was taking to decorate my dorm room and so did Kristan-my best friend.
I planned for months every year what to take.
Now-it is even worse, because not only do I have to pack me to look presentable for the week, but my three beauties as well.
Lyndsey packs herself-but I am still ultimately responsible for the look. Adara is like me and will just pack it all and a every shoe she own just to be safe. Tori Beth will pack certain outfits together, in order of the day she will wear them.
I am telling you the next couple of day at our house will be filled with frenzy and excitement as we prepare for camp.
Pray for Holy Spirit to do in every camper what He did in me at camp. That feeling of an annointing so strong you can not wait to be back there again.
Off to Mecca I go.
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Some of the things that make me happy.......
These are not the obvious things like family blah blah blah-this is some of the other good stuff in life.
a pedicure
my bed on Sunday afternoons
football weather
swimming without my kids
a good prayer meeting
tight harmony in a song
discovering a show like Army Wives
devils food cake with no icing
the after church camp nap
sitting by David in church
eating a meal with my sisters, their spouses, my parents and all of the kids
photo albums
websites about those neat homeschool moms that bake bread and sew their own clothes
Thats enough for now-I am smiling!
a pedicure
my bed on Sunday afternoons
football weather
swimming without my kids
a good prayer meeting
tight harmony in a song
discovering a show like Army Wives
devils food cake with no icing
the after church camp nap
sitting by David in church
eating a meal with my sisters, their spouses, my parents and all of the kids
photo albums
websites about those neat homeschool moms that bake bread and sew their own clothes
Thats enough for now-I am smiling!
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Let's get a few things straight.
Everyone needs to exfoliate-no exceptions. This is not a complicated thing-but it is very necessary. If you have any questions regarding this call me I will be glad to help.
Adultery is a sin. It does not matter how you justify it, it is sin. In fact if I recall it is in the top 10. I don't understand what people don't understand. If the person you are currently flirting with is married-or if you are married-find an altar-you are sinning. I do not say this in judgment but from painful experience. I think a 14 year marriage gives me the right to comment on this.
Church attendance is not optional. One of my very own children did not 'want' to go to church last night. She was not sick, she was not tired. She did not want to go because it is boring. Oh my cow-I have to put stop to this right now. Since when is church about being entertained???? She learned that from somewhere-I just pray it was not from her parents. People who do not attend church backslide. I can not afford to miss church-I need the fellowship of other believers. I need a place to worship with people who see the Father the way I do. You can skip or make excuses if you dare-take it up with God.
Everyone looks better with a tan. While I appreciate your opinion on my skin cancer options-I will continue to tan.
In conclusion-you are right I do not always answer my phone or call back right away. The way I see it if you need to talk to me that is fine-I can not however, be accessible 24/7 to anyone who does not live with me. I am amazed at how many people are offended because I am not at their beckon call. Just so you know I have been known to ignore the doorbell and continue napping as well. And just to be fair-I don't expect any different out of you.
WOW-this blog thing is GREAT!
Adultery is a sin. It does not matter how you justify it, it is sin. In fact if I recall it is in the top 10. I don't understand what people don't understand. If the person you are currently flirting with is married-or if you are married-find an altar-you are sinning. I do not say this in judgment but from painful experience. I think a 14 year marriage gives me the right to comment on this.
Church attendance is not optional. One of my very own children did not 'want' to go to church last night. She was not sick, she was not tired. She did not want to go because it is boring. Oh my cow-I have to put stop to this right now. Since when is church about being entertained???? She learned that from somewhere-I just pray it was not from her parents. People who do not attend church backslide. I can not afford to miss church-I need the fellowship of other believers. I need a place to worship with people who see the Father the way I do. You can skip or make excuses if you dare-take it up with God.
Everyone looks better with a tan. While I appreciate your opinion on my skin cancer options-I will continue to tan.
In conclusion-you are right I do not always answer my phone or call back right away. The way I see it if you need to talk to me that is fine-I can not however, be accessible 24/7 to anyone who does not live with me. I am amazed at how many people are offended because I am not at their beckon call. Just so you know I have been known to ignore the doorbell and continue napping as well. And just to be fair-I don't expect any different out of you.
WOW-this blog thing is GREAT!
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
What a way to begin
Apparently everyone except me blogs-so I figured it was time to do it too. I have fairly insightful thought, often a humorous muse during the day-I work alone a lot.
I named this blog to honor not only my husband-but to allow insight into our home and lives in Milan. David and I have been married 14 years tomorrow.
A Wednesday anniversary-lovely! I guess it is ok for #14 to be on a weekday-who celebrates the 14th anyway. I have discovered the gift to be given on the 14th anniversary is Ivory or Gold jewelery-very well I accept.
David is the straight man to all my shenanigans. He not only tolerates my oddities-but gets a huge kick out of them. We are a great match! He is a domestic genius, a wise businessman, a doting father, fun companion and trustworthy friend. I love him more today than I ever thought I would-especially the first year!!
More tomorrow....
I named this blog to honor not only my husband-but to allow insight into our home and lives in Milan. David and I have been married 14 years tomorrow.
A Wednesday anniversary-lovely! I guess it is ok for #14 to be on a weekday-who celebrates the 14th anyway. I have discovered the gift to be given on the 14th anniversary is Ivory or Gold jewelery-very well I accept.
David is the straight man to all my shenanigans. He not only tolerates my oddities-but gets a huge kick out of them. We are a great match! He is a domestic genius, a wise businessman, a doting father, fun companion and trustworthy friend. I love him more today than I ever thought I would-especially the first year!!
More tomorrow....
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